I've gotten to the point where I am actually listening to Incubus again. Ugh.
I went into work today and during pre-shift my manage looks at me and said "are you working today *looks at paper work* Your name is highlighted.. let me find out whats going on... have you gone over your test yet? Oh... that's what wrong...."

I failed my server test.

I'm not too bummed about it, as I knew that I wouldn't be able to remember all that stuff in one shot, the first time around. But it still feels pretty shetty. Everyone fails, but I failed by so much I have to retake it. I'm trying really hard not to give up on myself. I love food, I can remember I can remember I can remember.

I'm in a sticky boy situation (who's surprised?). I saw old pictures of one of them today- quite a babe 15 lbs ago. Quite a dad now, but thats just my type :) I suppose I'm going to hit the hay. I've been hanging out with Jess again lately. i missed her, even though we share a room. It's nice to finally feel adjusted to her not living the single life with me (heaven knows i could use a partner in crime though to wreak on hearts all over brooklyn).

I have to plan a Brooklyn brewery trip soon.


joneses.

i'm growin' up.

hey ladez.

so i was just recently informed by phil that he is coming home from cali tomorrow. i didn't feel any excitement when he told me. i'm kinda really happy, i guess this really means that there is nothing tying me to him anymore. i wouldn't care either way if i saw him or not. he's no longer my best friend, he just some guy i used to date. i guess not talking for 8 months was one of the best things to happen for me.

well i'll update you all on how this encounter goes.

love love love.
-Jean

boredumb.

i think i'm having an epiphany, and that epiphany is making me feel like life is the most mundane, boring shit. endless cycles. wheels go round. nothing really interests me anymore and it sucks. i don't know if it's the slow pace out here or if it's the 9-5 daily grind, but there's a major part of me getting eaten away. it really blows.

i'm really nervous about this whole purchase situation. jean, i tried faxing my paperwork from the bank the other day but i was a retard and forgot to press '9' before dialing the fax number. so, it kept saying the connection was busy and i eventually gave up. i will do it the right way on monday. i hope they get everything in time. i'm also really jittery about leaving colorado. i miss new york, i miss the loves of my life, but i'm just so afraid of making the wrong decision yet again. you all know how impulse and stupidity are totally my style... i'm trying to change it up a bit. i need to get myself out of this existential funk, out of this deep emo wormhole and get back to loving life before i lose my silly self completely.

i wonder all the time what it would be like if i had stayed back there this summer. i don't feel like i've taken steps backward, yet i definitely don't feel like i've taken any steps ahead. i just feel kind of frozen in time. i'm biding my time and losing my mind in the penalty box, pseudo-voluntarily, watching everyone else score. i wonder if this mindset is unconditional, if i'd still be in this slunk even if i were dancing on the counters at threesevs pt. 2. i highly doubt it. a rapidly growing part of me thinks i'm just crazy, but the remaining sane part thinks that it's just side effects of having a completely new lifestyle and going at it alone.

i am hoping that i will make the exact right decision soon, and my life will become a permagrin parade.

guyetti, happy birthday. i wish i could be there to drunkenly throw street meat at you, but only in the most loving way. i hope everything is perfect, i hope you get lots of hugs and high fives and i hope you will feel my undying love for you and the power of the jambon surrounding you in spirit. i miss you wifey.

i am going to try to call every single one of you tomorrow. i'm starting to feel that love, laughter and your sweet voices in my ears will be the mood medico bestico.

gabs on the morrow, dears.

miss miss miss love love love.

-gary.

snifflesnots.

where are my ladies going to be after september?!!

-gary

move in with me...all of you.

i just read that whole last entry with a sad face.

woahh. how come mom is moving back home? and what will you guys do after you break the lease in september? will there be a threesevs pt.3 or is that a wrap on threesevs?

we all embarked on brand new adventures this summer. jones and guyetti, you guys faced the real world. britt, you moved to a plave where you knew no one except your family. mine was a new adventure in the friends department. i stopped hanging out with all of my high school best friends and now hang out with my sea cliff children. i only met them in like february, but i feel like i've known some of them forever. if it wasn't for them my summer would of been pretty dull. i wish you all could just come live with me for the next month. if any of you are ever in need of a getaway/adventure, there is always an open couch/blow up bed at my house. my house is your house.

i'm quitting my job in like 2 or 3 weeks. august 25th i think you all should come to long island that afternoon. i will be high as a kite on pain killers because i get my wisdom teeth cut out of my jaw that day. we can have a matress party. make it happen, i miss those.

britty, my plan is to fly out to you either august 17th or 18th and stay for awhile. i don't have to be back in new york until the 23rd. so, start thinking of fun adventures for us to go on!

last night i was at the st. rocco's feast. its this weekend long italian fair in my town. i won a fish!! i let brett name him for me, Dr. Reginald Cheesecake III. he's sitting in a bowl right next me right now and he's kind of freaking out. oh carnival fish, they are crazy. he keeps opening his mouth, and it makes it look like he's angry and yelling. he probably is angry and yelling in fish language, i'm not the best fish caretaker. i kind of forgot you have to feed fish, i brought him to work and my mom asked where his food was. i then realized i don't own fish food. haha.

love love love you all.
-Jean

update on 3sevs pt. 2 brooklyn

I have to keep this brief, as I am tired and cranky.

Mom is moving back to Rochester.
Our room flooded again tonight.So when Jess gets home tonight we have to talk about breaking the lease and moving out by September.
Josh Underwood was supposed to move in.
I'm enjoying my time at Ruby Foo's and there aren't any boys there for me to love (it's great).

Okay stress stress stress. love love love.

Brittany, call me anytime. Also listen to Nada Surf's "Your legs grow" if ever you need to think of me. Here are the lyrics if you need to know why:

If you were here
Baby we'd increase the dose
There was no fear in my room
When we got close
Call me anytime
You've got a ghost
And you're the only person in the world
I feel that way about
And if you move off to the side
I'll get swept back out
Where it's cold but not that deep
Coz your legs grow
There's a light that rises up
From the bottom of the lake
And its beam has hit me hard
Now I'm wide awake
Where it's cold but not that deep
Coz your legs grow

I feel like your summer is the winner, Jean. I hope you're enjoying every breathing moment of it.

the 90's are back in full force.

i was at the mall yesterday and i headed in to nordstrom to do some browsing, and i couldn't help but laugh as soon as i walked in. blasting over the soundsystem was Quad City DJs - Come on ride the train. i guess nordstrom got the memo that the 90's are hip with the youngsters again.

-Ali Jean