ladyfingers

why does typing after you have painted your nails feel so great?

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hey ladiez!
i'm sitting watching the premiere of gossip girls, and also discussing the show with my friend taryn via aim. i never really watched it before, and i only did tonight so i could pick out the scenes that they shot in my neck of the woods. but now i think i may be obsessed and want to watch it all the time.

i move back to purch tomorrow. well sort of. in my drugged up state the other day i made an appt for wednesday morning. so tomorrow i move in, just to drive right back home. i'm kinda nervous and stressed about this year, i still haven't figured out what my senior project is going to be, i need to get on that asap.

i'm gonna really miss this summer. i know i didn't get to see you ladies much and i'm sorry for it. but i spent this summer getting back in touch with long island. i've spent the past few years hating this place for various reasons, but this summer i started to love it again. i embraced my last summer as a child and went crazy.

i'm going to try and be around more from now on, hopefully my senior project and a job will allow that to happen. i need to start my job hunt like immediately. i've got like 400 bucks to my name, and that sure won't last long once i start buying groceries and whatnot.

okkkk time to go to hayleys house....i'll finish this later!
love you all!
-Jean

on top of a mountain, under a rainbow.

i kind of don't miss NY anymore. at all.

freewrite!

I thought i needed a boyfriend i don't need a boyfriend she's different than I am i should probably date older people when will i have time to go to the bank how am i going to pay my rent i feel really badly about how this apartment all worked out wheres alysse i need a movie and her bed it would be weird to sleep with josh haha speaking of josh, thats why josh jenks hasn't gotten back to me about squat he changed his number but he managed to find me while in search of a new apartment everyone wants to know the company we went through smoking sucks i fucking really hate smoking i wish i wanted to bone the comedian because he actually likes me and isn't awful.
i bought a clockwork orange today funny thing all of the language in that book is so foreign i can't figure out if it's period-piece colloquialisms or another language though i'm going to go with another language thankfully it's a used book so the first reader put the meanings next to most of them the font is tiny so its very blurry when i read it i haven't finished any of the books i started reading this summer well i finished two out of five but that is not that great.
i took a ferry ride to staten island today with anne yao we took so many pictures and i will get around to putting them on a website at some point then we visited our friend mandy who just broke her foot and is really depressed i had an idea to buy her wine which was originally forties but i thought i would keep it classy but anyhoot we bought her wine and honey buns and she was all i quit drinking and i'm trying to eat healthy i felt a little crushed.
i think i'm slightly depressed but it might be that week where i'm depressed so ndb oh jess is home.
DONE.

denva feva.

thank you, RE:UP magazine, for making the most vanilla city in america look so deliciously gangsta.

so hiiighhhh

today was th big day. i lost my wisdom teeth. adn now im really high adn happy.can'twat for the vics to be picked up at the store. it will be glorious. i got some free oxycodones too, from one of the guys who always sat at the bar at steamboat. wahhoooo! its really dificult to write this but im trying. later this afternoon chris and mike are coming over and we have a movie/drug date. i look so forward to it. i love movies and jello and mac'n cheese and milkshakes.
oh shit mama is supposed to get me a milkshake. yummmmmmmmmm.
ok well myh igh ass self is going to rent a movie and veg out till the boys come over.
Lovey ou ladiezzzzz.
miss you.
-Jean

outta sight.

i have the feeling that this blog is rapidly becoming more of a digital time capsule as days go by, a dried out monument to a little shard of time, but i am going to post anyway half for the hell of it and half out of hoping that one of these days y'all will take a quick break out of your busy busy lives and remember your good ol' friend britt who still loves ya mucho mucho.

i am going to be visiting for a few days next month. sept. 18-22. it would definitely be great to see you ladies, even if it's for a quick hi and a hug. i know you all are living your lives and being grown up and are busy as hell, and i know how that goes, so i'm not going to drop at your feet and beg. if you guys can squeeze me in for a beer or two, that would be sweet.

ali came and left last week. it was a fast visit, but a fun one. i look forward to seeing you in a few weeks, miss jean. i'm sorry i wasn't my usual self out here. pretty stressed with work and having the house full of strangers. i wish we could have had more time to disappear for a while. i promise i will be nothing but sunshine and rainbows when i come back home. it's exactly what i need to get the not-so-fun crazies out of me and get the fun ones back in.

dan left yesterday. he is on his way back to rhode island and is probably chugging along across missouri right about now. i was so bummed that i couldn't make the journey back with him. i was so looking forward to stopping in bolivar and hanging out at the Chef with biz, running through the empty house just like i did when my family moved in there fifteen years ago and reading all the now-exposed scribblings i left on the walls in my room. it would have been nice to go back to rhode island and go to the park that overlooks providence and smoke a couple cigs. buy tea and people watch on thayer street. most of all, i was really looking forward to finally arriving at purchase, exhausted, and reuniting with all of my favourite people in the world. i can't wait for january when i get to tick off all those little things and clear the back of my cluttered mind.

anyway, life out here is good. i'm having a lot of fun seeing and doing new things and meeting new people. i'm alone for the first time in a very long time, and it's proving to be very good for me. i've been writing a lot lately and have finally started writing the three children's books i have been battling with the past few years. i have been putting a lot of my energy into getting in good shape and taking better care of myself. it's helped me get a job modeling for a new clothing company out here. my first runway show is the 13th and i've been working really hard to really rock the cute, funky little betsey johnson cocktail dresses i get to wear for it. i'm spending time writing music with my brother again and i've been coaching my dad's new client, joanna yaeger, while she is out here recording her first country music demo. at first i was kind of pissed that my house was crammed with people, but now i am really enjoying having joanna around. she has a really beautiful, powerful voice for being such a young little lady and they have brought out some of the best players in nashville to play on her project, which is being produced by a couple of grammy-winning producers. this is her first time doing anything like this and, understandably, she is a bit overwhelmed and it's been pretty cool being able to take her under my wing and show her the ropes of studio recording.

i have really enjoyed filling my plate to its full capacity lately, especially with all my favourite flavours.

it's much easier crossing the days off the calendar when they fly by so fast.

anyway, i hope you all are doing well. i would call more often, but i never know when is good for all of you and i don't want to be a bother. if any of you do read this and feel inclined to drop a line, please do. i miss and love you all very much.

-gary