Take it out of your pocket, carry it with you, and share with the people whose company you enjoy.
I'm so confused about everything right now-- but I'm the happiest and the most grounded I've been in a long time. I feel like I haven't really questioned things in awhile, which is kind of scary because I know I was just kind of dormant and not the usual overly-active guyetti (whether that be mentally or physically. But I do prefer to be both now.)
I work a lot, and I really enjoy it. This place is disciplining the shit out of me- and if anyone could have used a huge dose of that I think it was me. How many months did I spend on threesevs couch doing fucking nothing except making quesadillas, drinking beer, watching fuseTV and working at Career Development? I'm glad I'm busy, happy, and looking forward to this life I now live for the first time since before I went to Purchase. As much as I loved meeting you little ladies, I feel like Purchase ruined a small part of me that I don't know if I'll ever get back.
I do feel myself falling back into that person I used to be, who was responsible and authority-fearing (respecting) and a solitary mind wanderer. I missed her. I like being self-sufficient, I really enjoy knowing I can do this by myself at the end of the day (not counting friends.)
I seriously love you girls, I'm so glad we all met and came together- we bring out such wonderful things in each other and bring so many different qualities and walks of life to the table that we can share.